Out of time

I've never felt so sober
I've never felt the way that I feel tonight
Your words made everything drag on and on

I finally found her
And when I did I just couldn't make things right
Is this really happening?
Oh God, I think I just ruined my life

What the fuck am I doing?
I can't tell the difference from wrong and right
I can guess my decisions
'Cause I haven't been this person in my whole life

I think I need something new here
When I keep longing for what I had
No need for second opinions
I do the best I can to ruin what I have, come on

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
You're dying, just make up your mind

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're running out of time

Something just from the new year
It's a moment that's not as bad
It's what's a part of my vision
The optimistic me, so we can make this last but no

You ruined my favorite records
By singing them then I think of you
That's just hope you remember
All of the guilt inside and I believed in you for once

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
You're dying, just make up your mind

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're running out of time

Just know that it kills me
When I hear anything to do with you
You will see, oh, believe me
I need to be right where you are

And know that I'm leaving
And you won't hear for a year from now
And this kills me
'Cause now I think that everything's, everything's about you

I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're running out of time

Don't think you've got to go in alone here
I've got nothing left to hide
You're dying, just make up your mind