I was hoping

As we were talking outside
It was cold, we were shivering
Yet warmed by the subject matter

"My wife is in the next room
We've been having troubles, you know
Please don't tell her or anyone
But I need to talk to somebody"

You said
"Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was
Five minutes before I died?
I'd be filled with such regret
Before I took my last breath"

And I said
"You're willing to tell me this now
And you're not going to die anytime soon"
And I said I haven't been eating chicken
Or meat or anything

And you said
"Yes, but you've been wearing leather"
And laughed and after said
"We're at the top of the food chain
And yes, you're still a fine woman"
And I cringed

I was hoping, I was hoping
We could heal each other
I was hoping, I was hoping
We could be raw together

We left the restaurant
Where the head waiter, in his 60's,said
"Goodbye, sir
Thank you for your business, sir
You're successful and established, sir
And we like the frequency with which you dine here, sir
And your money"

And when I walked by, they said
"Thank you too, dear"
I was all pigtails and cords
And there was a day
When I would've said something like
"Hey dude, I could buy and sell this place
So kiss it"
I too once thought I was owed something

I was hoping, I was hoping
We could challenge each other
I was hoping, I was hoping
We could crack each other up

I too thought that when proved wrong
I lost somehow
I too thought life was cruel
It's a cycle, really
You think I'm with drawing
And guilt tripping you
I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard

And I said
"Do you believe we are fundamentally judgmental?
Fundamentally evil?"
And you said yes
And I said I don't believe in revenge
In right or wrong, good or bad

And you said
"Well, what about the man that I saw
Handcuffed in the emergency room
Bleeding after beating his kid
And she threw a shoe at his head
I think what he did was wrong
And I would've had a hard time
Feeling compassion for him"
I had to watch my tone
For fear of having you feel judged

I was hoping, I was hoping
We could dance together
I was hoping, I was hoping
We could be creamy together