Not what you asked for

So this is where I lost control
and this is where I fell
This is where I thought it turned around
and then it went to Hell
This is where I finally learned to laugh
and this is where I stopped
This is where I took the weight of the world
and this is where it dropped

Why can't we be saved by apathy
Defined by triumph and not by tragedy
You're who you are when the wires come loose
Why can't we find ourselves a better excuse
to explain the things that come just the same
The fear, the sorrow, the guilt, the pain
If they were gone, then I guess they'd be missed
but now they're here and I never asked for this

But no one ever does

Falling, rising, matters of the heart
Another aspect of this dying art

And once you've figured it out my friend
it all comes down just to fuck you again

This is where I learned to stand
and this is where I crawled
This is where things started taking off
and this is where they stalled
This is where I chose to live by my will
and this is where I paid
This is where I finally gave up hope
and that is where I stayed

Forgive, forget, rejoice, regret
they're just the scars that haven't healed yet
We live for nothing and will 'til we're done
Then we find out just what we have won
There's a seat awaiting down in Hell
Perhaps a spot in Heaven as well
Perhaps there's no consequence in the end
Perhaps we get to go around again

So this is what we're meant to be
and this is what we are
It's somewhat funny, 'cause you never know
How goddamn far down things can go

If it were easy, it'd be no fun
and no one would get anything done
No one cares about the things you've sought
It's not what you asked for,
but here's what you got