War of nerves

Monday on the line
When you know that now's the time
To leave and be free
Aware of your destiny

When that moment arrives
Wild visions through your mind
And all I see is what used to be
My life could soon be a memory

I don't ever want to feel pain
Want to be ready when you call my name
I don't ever want to feel fear
'Cause every night feels alright when you're near

Battle through this war of nerves
When your life, it take's a turn
And what I have is what I fear
While in my mind your lying here

Fear, that unholy dread
There's a piece of me in all he said
All kinds of weird stuff inside my head
The stage fright in my own bed

I don't ever want to feel pain
Want to be ready when you call my name
I don't ever want to feel fear
'Cause every night feels alright when you're near

Don't want to be like a voice without words
'Cause I need you here with me
Don't want to be alone in this world
Will I suppress my fear?
And will I beat this war of nerves

I don't ever want to feel pain
Want to be ready when you call my name
I don't ever want to feel fear
'Cause every night feels alright when you're near

I don't ever wanna feel pain
When it's over, will I feel the same
I don't ever wanna feel fear
This war of nerves that I reserve for when you're here

I don't ever wanna feel pain
I'm feeling hurt, but I feel no shame
I don't ever wanna feel fear
Do I deserve these cruel words we have here?