Gethsemane (i only want to say)

I only want to say
If there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison
Feel it burn me,
I have changed
I'm not as sure
As when we started

Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
Listen, surely I've exceeded expectations
Tried for three years, seems like thirty
Could you ask as much from any other man?

But if I die
See the saga through and do the things you ask of me
Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me, nail me to their tree
I'd want to know I'd want to know my God
I'd want to see I'd want to see my God

Why I should die
Would I be more noticed than I was ever before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?
I'd have to know I'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to see I'd have to see my Lord

If I die what will be my reward?
I'd have to know I'd have to know my Lord
Why should I die?
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain
Show me there's a reason for your wanting me to die
You're far too keen on where and how but not so hot on why
Alright I'll die!
Just watch me die!
See how I die!

Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
After all I've tried for three years, seems like ninety
Why then am I scared to finish what I started
What you started -- I didn't start it
God thy will is hard
But you hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison,
Nail me to the cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me, kill me
Take me now
Before I change my mind....