Torn mind

The will i keep inside
Has been pulled out yet another time
The shiver down the spine
Discharges from this twisted mind
But i want it, do i need it ?
Should i feel this torn inside ?
The shadows of my innerself
Once more have left to seek the light

Grievous faces passing by
It´s not my turn to knot the tie
Someone else´s got that role
Another one to say goodbye
A part of me was left behind
But all the rest keeps me in time
The sorrow changes into desire
Again i feel as one

All days i drag myself
In quest for peace of mind
No rest, no compromise
I need another try
To feel alive, to be ... alive ...

Now ... confusion in this mind, no more need to be consoled
I will never waste more time, i will never loose my time
Shall embrace my own fight, never fearing a goodbye
Never staying left behind, that is really not my kind

No, you are not like me, a little special but you ain´t
To be you gotta work it harder,
Then you might take one step further
Down the hole, where life is to be told
No, i´m really not like what you once knew of me

Now i´m clean and it feels good
All the meanings become real
Do you mind that i feel
This much inside this torn mind