The girl i loved before i fucked

I can't even escape you in my sleep when all I need is rest
Knowing when I wake up I can't watch you get dressed
And pretend I'm sleeping and imagine you with child

A suggestion often made by me
And by you always reviled
I wanted to watch your body change
And loosen all your clothes
To hold a new born baby with your eyes and my nose

I suppose that was the first sign
That you never really were mine
My twisted spine is aching now
This bed's got so much space
In direct contrast to my mind
Which is cluttered with your face

You're the girl I loved before I fucked and that's so rare
So I'll help you leave your home while you decide if you still care
I really thought we never could end
Or at least I'd always be your good friend

But then I think about what you've done
And his tongue pressed against your tongue
Your bodies together in our bed
His cock in your cunt, his cock in your head

And instead of a new platonic future for you and me
I hope you get an abortion or at least an std
When out with married friends, I sat with them on the bus
I watched the way they were and that could never have been us

So the girl I loved before I fucked, you'll always be
But the woman you've grown into is no woman for me