Didn't want to say goodbye

In a room draped in blue
I am thinking of you
I am tired, I can't sleep
And for you I will weep

In a flash, you are gone
Yet around me life is calm
I cannot understand
Is this part of the plan?

I get cards with bouquets
But they can't take your place
I have dreams about us
But I always wake up

I can ask all I please
I can beg down on my knees
For a reason, for a sign
But these answers I won't find

And I will weep
Can you hear me?
Can't you tell me why?

I'll go on without you
And what's left for me to do
But to stay where I am
In my world of pretend

And I won't know until I die
If my faith was but a lie
'Til then you'll hear it in my cry
I didn't want to say goodbye to you