When'd you find me

Thinking of you today almost had me right back at tears
Seems just a hint of your face was enough to bring back my fears
Been putting you out like the trash that you are
With weekly pickup on wednesdays

Then head home take a pill
Fall asleep for a month
And wake up with a new face

Goddamn these thoughts
And goddamn these people that remind me of you
And goddamn the heart attacks
Every single one of them I wish you'd go through
I've been told it's good for me to cry but I can't
The thought doesn't register
I put power in you then try to take it away
But it proves too impossible