Asleep at the wheel

I'll buy some cigarettes and smoke them on the beach
I'll walk home alone and douse my whole bedroom in bleach
Because I feel safe behind these four brick walls
But my skin's too thin so can I borrow yours?

It's just enough to let you walk out of that door
Knowing you left your head at home

I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks
I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep
Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up
Still here and it's all because of me

Because I wished it was bright so I'll just wait for the light
I'm sick of hearing I'm wrong instead of hearing I'm right
I'm sick of hearing that everything is fine

All I ever wanted to be
Was safe in the comfort of my own company
All that you ever needed from me was for me to be conscious
And act like there's nothing wrong

I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks
I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep
Cause I'm not giving up, but not not getting up
Still here and it's all because of me

I fell asleep with the weight of the world
Crushing me until I'm gone
Until I'm gone

I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks
I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep
Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up
Still here and it's all because of me