No prayer

here's no prayer I could say, no advice I could take, no pill that would make me feel better. There's no fountain to seek, no cup I could drink. I know of nothing that ever grew younger. But the universe it must go on forever, just like two mirrors that are facing each other. It's reality upon illusion over and over until you can't tell the difference, they both just blend together.
And I just put each day in a box on a calendar, winter to summer. And I'll go walking in that same circle for as long as I can remember. I just keep hoping that someone would make me a better offer. Cause I know the end that we see from our balcony is barely the beginning.
So I'm up on the fence and I'm still not convinced. Can't decide which side looks greener. So I just stay where I am, remain indifferent. What happens, what's happened it's easier.
I'll go ahead and drown myself in the fluids of another. Yeah my woman to me was as pure and essential as water. And so she looked like me for awhile but she does no longer cause she took the shape of whatever it was that held her. She killed the fear in my heart but our love also got murdered. She said my child you can no longer sing of that fever cause it's selfish and you are not selfish. You must get stronger. So I know when your lover leaves I guess all you can be is forgiving.