Nothing gets crossed out

Well, the future's got me worried, such awful thoughts
My head's a carousel of pictures
The spinning never stops
I just want someone to walk in front
And I'll follow the leader
Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush
Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs
I almost forgot who I was, but came to my senses
Now I'm trying to be assertive, I'm making plans, want to rise to the occasion, yeah, meet all their demands
But all I do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers
Yeah, I know I should be brave
But I'm just too afraid of all this change
And it's hard to focus through all this doubt
I keep making this "To Do" list but nothing gets crossed out
Working on the record seems pointless now
When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?
Well I'm trying to take some comfort in written words
Yeah, Tim I heard your album and it's better than good
When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together
'Cause I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by
All those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting our time
Remember all those songs and the way we smiled, in those basements made of music?
But now I've got to crawl
To get anywhere at all
I'm not as strong as I thought

So when I'm lost in a crowd
I hope that you'll pick me out
Oh, how I, I long to be found
The grass grew high, I laid down
Now I, wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand
I've been laying so low
Don't wanna lay here no more
Don't wanna lay here no more
Don't wanna lay here no more
Don't wanna lay here no more
No more... More...

But if everything that happens is supposed to be
And it's all predetermined, can't change your destiny
I guess I'll just keep moving, someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going