A way out

Why do I try - sometimes I need reasons
For leaving songs after I stop breathing
Long after I'm gone - what greater gift will be there
If I struggle, if I dig deep, go every night without sleep
Torturin' myself till I give every piece away and there's nothing left.

Till I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna fuck
I just wanna shoot up into space where I can blow up
Into pieces that float into nowhere - I wanna go there
Where I won't know care, where I won't know existence
Resistance, for an instance, for a moment
We can fight but every moment will always be lost.

I can't believe what you're sayin' now
Nothing is real except for pain now
Life is a deal I never made now
Tossed into skin - I need a way out
I had to blow my brains out

No matter how we spend our time
Every tick of the clock counting down
We lose our minds trying to find a way
To make it all stop - climbing for years
Out of fear that we won't reach the top
My hands are numb and I need to just drop

I can't believe what you're sayin' now
Nothing is real except for pain now
Life is a deal I never made now
Tossed into skin - I need a way out
I had to blow my brains out

I need a way out