A curse

The way I feel has been a curse.
Forever lost... I should've learnt.
It's how you feel, and what you think
Combined as one decide within.

To write this over, to be around
I held your hands, though mine were bound.
I'll never go back to the start
Nothing would change here. I'd break your heart.
Never forget us, for it was real.
If we move on apart, in time, I'll heal.