Internal darkness

Sunshine, I wait for dawns recurrent light
I ponder in my narrow house and warm myself
Moonlight, calmly shines through the night
I stare at these old photographs, my heart beats fast

I find no peace to read or write
My soul is lost, my spirits down
Theres no one in the dark
My little world has lost its light

The dim serene, I cant escape at all and my thoughts reveal
I cant forget the better days behind closed doors
Im still confused and longing for

Behind these lowered window blinds
Im holding back the tears and find
I think I shall never know
Why Im like this and you are so

We all grow, what happened through the years where dreams lie still
I tried to change it all and found dreams lie dead
I cant redo it all again