What am i doing there

I no longer know what's real any more
In the back of my mind I have opened the door
That leads to the past and the love we once shared
I keep asking myself what am I doing there

What am I doing there holding you tight
Taking down your hair lying close by your side
Making believe that you still care
My new life is here what am I doing there

I don't get much rest with this secret I keep
I'm afraid that some night I'll talk in my sleep
How could I explain to the one lying here
She's loving me now what am I doing there

What am I doing there...
My new life is here what am I doing there