Living in your letters

I'm always assuming the worst,
But you're going on none the less
& there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
Keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
Longer good-byes
Embracing for forever
And falling in your eyes.

Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
It smells like you & I can't be
Without that scent. It's filling me
With all you mean to me.

Continually failing these trials
But you stand by me nonetheless
& you won't let me sink
Though I'm begging you.
Phone calls from further away
& messages on my machine,
But I don't ever tell you this distance
Seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
With useless space.
These roads go on forever
There'll always be a place for you, my heart.

So I'll hit the pavement
It's gotta be better than waiting
& pushing you far away
Cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances
& head on my way up there.
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.