The currents of me

Take away my pleasures
All my freedom gained
Taking the answers
Only fuels my brain

Dove headfirst so long ago
Still can't swim this deep
Closing in on here and now
Finding the currents of me

Take the personality
From myself and I
The faith I live for
More than meets the eye

Take from me desire
Five senses pull
Shove me naked
Strengthen all I do

It's rare for me to worry yet worry's all I do
It serves as my protection and always pulls me through
I never thought I'd see this day until the day I did
Always wrapped around this moment for each moment lived

So this is what it's like
I had forgotten
The shine has worn, my head has shrunk
From bending ourselves to shape

Still, we shape ourselves to fit
Fit ourselves to wear, we don't fit

So this is what it's like
I had forgotten
Back to size at 2 years dead
Hungry for change again

Spread apart the reason
Scattering goals
Stifle my potential
Never fill my role
Take it all, go hide it
Take it far from here
My own agenda
Has real alternatives

Dove headfirst so long ago
Still can't swim this deep
Closing in on here and now
Finding the currents of me
And everything I believe
Is riding these currents of me

I've found my place in it - it's such a perfect fit
I find it hard to leave - it's everything to me

I'm sending up my last flare
To meet whatever calls me here to find me
Treading for nothing
I can't keep stopping and starting this thing without a warning
I never know just where it's gonna take me
I just let it take me...
It's gotta make me ride out, to make me ride in
But it all washes up in the end...
Then you'll see (then you'll see)