Piece of me

She's laughing while I'm crying
She's smiling while I'm dying
I wish I could stop
I'm so tired of trying
I just wanna give up
I just wanna let go
Cuz I would do anything for her
Anything to show
Show how much I care
Make her see that I'll always be there
But she won't look at me now.
And she's laughing while I'm crying
Smiling while I'm dying
I wish I could stop
I'm so tired of trying
I met her so long ago-
We seemed so close
I told her all I wanted
But there's so much she doesn't know
She doesn't really know me
She thinks there's nothing left to learn
She doesn't seem to care I'm gone and that I won't return
And...
She's laughing while I'm crying
She's smiling while I'm dying
My very best friend, right?
-I'm so sick of all the lying

I'm so confused-was ANY of it real?
I can't even explain to myself these feelings that I feel
There's so many parts of me-
some good and many bad
Some that I want to be-but some that just make me sad
So many parts of me
And half of them are lying
The question is-
Is the piece of me that's laughing while I'm crying?
I think she means well, she's helped me through so much
She was always in the picture of my life that she has touched
Without her along with me, my life would've been hell,
But now she's part of the pieces of me that are starting to rebel-beginning to give up…letting things slip away…
part of me that made me wonder where I really wanted to stay.

Part of me that's making me feel so sad-
When I know I really shouldn't
And I can take nothing back
But if I could I probably wouldn't
I love her for life-
No matter WHO says that I shouldn't.
And I'll always be around
And all always do what I can do
To help her through hard times and help make her dreams come true.
I'll always do my best
To make sure she's alright
I wanna HELP her
I want her happy
For this I pray each night
I love her so much
I just hope that it's real...
And I don't understand it-
I probably never will.
But I'm so so happy that-
She's laughing while I'm crying
She's smiling while I'm dying
-but I'm so confused and I'm
So tired of trying.