Dear death pt. 2

Time is running out
As you die die die in this bed not making a sound
It has all come crashing down
To be here and watch you breathe your last
So helpless to stop you from slipping away so fast
Oh God are you listening now
As this cancer dances through her and then takes a bow
It won't disappoint the crowd
Whose words are a curse as I hear them one by one
Each pull, the string, and I come undone

I know this, I failed to say you're worth this (I'm sinking by your side)
I wouldn't trade a day to not have gone through this
So many days I've been blind, I want to stop and rewind
Kick off our shoes and dance

With the ghost of you
Who could tease me and leave me begging for the abuse
You're the only one I knew
That could tame me and make me who I am
But now it's all fading, and there's nothing left of all my plans

Let's dance again, we'll turn up our sleeves, I know just where to begin
Dance, let's dance again, we could find ourselves before this happened

These words of mine are trite and so cliché
And still they find their place in everything
It's just to break the silence that has been crushing me
Half of me is dead, already gone
And half is screaming everyone is wrong
I'm finally asking now will you

Just hear me out this was all my fault
Now you've brought me death and it's everything I wanted
It's the wrong side of fear that kept me out