A gift, a curse

What I've done
What I've seen
The lives I've touched, what does it mean?
Losing track of everything
I gave it all
But what did I gain?
And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release
'Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see
So even if I die I'll never rest in peace

I was desperate just to shine
Now I struggle constantly to survive

I have nothing to prove to you

What I've done
What I've seen
The lives I've touched, what does it mean?
Losing track of everything
I gave it all
But what did I gain?
And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release
'Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see
So even if I die I'll never rest in peace

And I've tried so many times to show that what I feel is real
No, this is not a joke
But you keep pushing me
Yeah, you keep pushing me
And now you've gone too far
And there's no turning back
And now I hope you choke and fucking burn in hell
Burn

Nothing changes
All I know is that
I'm alone in this
Silently I wait hoping you'd come back for me
All I know is that
I'm alone in this
Silently I wait hoping you'd come back for me

Seems like I'll be
Waiting 'till the end
Knowing that I can't speak to you again
Truth is you were never there

I don't need your empty words or bullshit sympathy
So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me

Now I wish all this evil upon you
You deserve to feel what I'm going through
Now I wish this evil upon you
You deserve to feel what I'm going through