End of me

It wasn't the fear of exemption
The thought of alone
It wasn't releasing myself from all the skeletons
No. It wasn't hard to believe in everything I was told
Until I grew up and had to make some sense on my own
And how could everything I say I've been through
Using words somehow satisfy me
Like making you feel bad for me cures
This disease, the hate, the fact that I can't erase
Its like the oxygen I breathe is poisonous and hey
I'm not just another guy looking for answers in life
Like why a god why a hell, where do we go when we die
Cause honestly I don't believe a revelation can spawn
These questioning demons to pack their bags and be gone

I know how it must seem to hear these words as a cloud
A depressing and condescending broken record too loud
But they're my words and thoughts
And I choose to persevere
I refuse to give up
And let the future end here

You took my Halo! Lo! Lo!
You took my Halo! Lo! Lo!

How many scratches on the surface of fate
How many lies does it take to be complacent today
I'm not broken, but I have a scar or two
That lead me to change
The path the blood takes
From my heart to my brain
Its a shame how we can go from being practically sane
To find out that it was only cause we self medicate
It's your life, you find solutions that can help you escape
And I'll act like I believe you
And the lies we exchange

I know how it must seem to hear these words as a cloud
A depressing and condescending broken record too loud
But they're my words and thoughts
And I choose to persevere
I refuse to give up
And let the future end here

You took my Halo! Lo! Lo!
You took my Halo! Lo! Lo!

Moving forward, living for tomorrow
When the day before
Delivered us with every reason why this is normal
Searching every room, every corner
Feeling like the days are shorter
How the hell can you tell me that pain is a disorder
I was there, I wasn't dreaming, I didn't create this feeling
How dare you look me in the eyes and
Tell me there's a reason
For a mother not to see their children
Growing up to cure diseases only to be buried by one
Then tell them Jesus has his reasons

I know how it must seem to hear these words as a cloud
A depressing and condescending broken record too loud
But they're my words and thoughts
And I choose to persevere
I refuse to give up
And let the future end here

You took my Halo! Lo! Lo!
You took my Halo! Lo! Lo!