I don't know which way to turn

I don't know which way to turn
all the lessons I have learned are
meaningless because I'm free to
deceive all who believed I deliver
best when I'm deprived of all the
things I need that's just me can't
you see that I despis integrity
and if it hurts to be so sure and
if you're not as sure then surely
you should change your point of view
and if I was to say let's change then
we would change today because change
is just a phase we all go through
when I'm up there on the stage I just hide my eyes and
pray that
soon enough the show will end
why do I go through this hell
each time I question myself but
next night I'm up there again
its the same as real life I want to
end that as well and if it's wrong
then it's right to me because I can see
the goodness in the things you're
going to do it's not a case of what is
right or wrong it's just as long as
you can see what we were having to do