Vengeance factor

This is worth it's weight in words
to give in now would be absurd.
So keep your retracted retractions to yourself.

This plays upon my sympathies,
I shouldn't have come.
I know I should leave,
but they said,
but they said
I should see this for myself.

And now these sighs are severing.
And I was saving everything,
can't believe,
I believed,
I believed that this might help.

Making amends, seems so far out of hand.
still holding strong to where we stand.
must have lost all sight of how we ever felt.

getting even,
getting even,
getting ready to fight
gotten smug,
gotten ugly,
and lost all sense of pride,
and I'm forgetting,
I'm forgetting
why I wanted to cry,
and I'm still waiting on a day no hearts would die.