Permanent vacation

Once i used to read , once i used to think
Now i solve my problems
By ordering in another drink
I tasted life with reverence , i used to like myself
Today i´m throwing tomorrow away
Ruin my health

I need a revolution , a permanent solution
It´s an unbearable temptation
The permanent vacation

Got to do more , be more , creating a life
Un fulfilment broken dreams
Cuts me like a knife
Hell it´s just another hangover
Feeding my bitterness
It´s time to wipe away my tears
Mending my life in the process

I need a revolution , a permanent solution
It´s an unbearable temptation
The permanent vacation

You say you´re not sure
You say you need more time
I say what are you worrying for
Your wish is the same as mine
I´m not trying to change your life
I´m not trying to take control
Though your indecision cuts me like a knife
I´m not trying to invade your soul

All we really want is to be held
Through the night
For a moment put aside anger , fear and spite
Ever since we left paradise
It´s always been our fate
To dream of making love
Making up , making hate

Precious little moments building up to tears
While we gently put aside our jealousy and fears
Wondering if we found a love that last forever
Deciding she´s to loud , narrow minded or whatever..

All we really want is to be held
Through the night
For a moment put aside anger , fear and spite
Ever since we left paradise
It´s always been our fate
To dream of making love
Making up , making hate

My friend went away for the weekend
And he never came back home
He was found with his fathers gun in his mouth
And beside him his last poem . . .
When i heard the news
I just drove around in vain
My head was filled with questions
Anger , guilt and shame

Late one night i couldn´t sleep
So i turned my memory around
I saw faces and moves and places we´ve been
Some of that good life we found
I hear phrases form a dialogue
And i remember what we said
The way you brushed your hair form your forhead
And how you loved to make me mad

Keep thinking about the way you said goodbye
Was it really brave
I keep thinking about the way you said
Goodbye , was it really brave . .

I played a record again and again
From side to side
Then i put away the best part
Of a bottle of whiskey
And sat right down and cried
You were someone i could talk to
You were someone i could trust
Now you´re six feet under . .
Slowly into dust

Keep thinking about the way you said goodbye
Was it really brave
I keep thinking about the way you said
Goodbye , was it really brave . .

It´s been to much , i can´t take it anymore so bye , bye brain
To many things going on in my mind
I seek shelter from the pain

My head is spinning
My eyes are fallen out
My stomach seems to open and it´s making me shout
Somewhere i´ve lost track of what it´s all about

It´s an amazing sensations
My permanent vacation
My body and brain cannot be disturbed
But sometimes at night my voice
Can still be heard
Still can be heard , laughing in the asylum

There is no permanent solution
No easy way out of this confusion
No constant happiness
But you´ve got to comprehend
After every storm there lies a rainbows end

The answer is not a permanent vacation
Use your humor and your patience
No lasting sanity you´ve got to understand
After every sunset the world lies in your hand . .