Dancing on debris

Answer me one last question, before I leave this place behind
How could you stay with me for all those years, while living a lie?
I know truth is tensile, but was it what we had been looking for?
Or could we just find sleep next to each other or in sativa dreams?

We just fooled ourselves, it's so damn obvious!
Buildings burn, beloved people die
Not even friendships last forever!
Sooner or later this apathy will dry up my heart
But I keep on smirking, I keep on dancing on debris!

For so many years the only colours
I saw where black-white-grey
Every morning I felt like waking up in raingarden's arms
And when every day ends up like this
It's self-deception to still hold up hope
Same reason that I take these pills
Same reason that I drink that much!

Your glance is as empty as the feeling I get
While gazing at cemetery walls
'Cause when I look into your eyes it seems
Like staring though the eyes of the dead
With the benefit of hindsight
So many things were of no lastly use
But there's no remorse
For me the consequences for you the guillotine

I just turned twenty-four and life is still not getting easier
Rather more inverted. It just seems to pass faster
The agitation I feel faces me with no other choice
You met me at a very strange time of my life

Again, these painful memories obsess me and indicate
That this is the last chance to leave the sinking ship
Don't tell me I love you, who the fuck do you think you are?
Spare me the lies, you don't even know who I am!

Two times I already collapsed in pulling the trigger
The next shot won't be the third, at most the lst
You won't succeed in lightening up the sky again
'Cause after drowning the light the stars are finally dead now