Drown in my nihilism

All the decisions that I made, which led me to this place
Where not wrong nor right, but urgent!
And as far as my feet will carry me
And as long as my heart still beats
Thi is its rhythm, this is its beat!

As the last leaves touched the ground beneath my hands
This summer ended before I could find my way back home
It seems I'm still not ready for this journey to end
But somehow I'm sorry to've left you out there all alone

You call it home, I call it isolation
You call it love, I call it a prison of mirrors
You call it security, I call it last respite
You call it life, I call it dystopia

Once you've heard, that these stories could be true
Now listen, this one will fucking destroy you
All that's out in this world is just a lie
Except the pain of pure hearts and those sad songs
That make you wanna die

But the sea of memories that devoured me
Is not as deep as the lake you'll drown in
These are my last words, I wish I could burn my eyes
Like all the other faceless names bury mine too behind oaken trees

And drown in my nihilism!