No sense

I want to hear deafness
I want to see blindness
I want to feel alive

Yesterday i ran like the wind
And seemed to be ahead of everything
Today i stopped for a while
In the midst of my own eternity
I need a question
To find the answer

I've always walked with you
For a second, walk with me
Don't seek eternity

Why am i damned to freedom,
When i'm better off enslaved?
I would laugh and i would smile
Come on and chain me for a while

You should tear off my ears
You should stab out my eyes
You should lock me in a chamber
So i could feel alive

I've been swimming in this lake
Now i am drowning
Today the water froze to ice
Although the sun was shining

Now i can hear nothing
Now i can see nothing
Now i can feel everything