The suffering (trilogy)

Darkness calls down to me
Sweat pours from my body like rain
Growing wiser with each touch
A pawn in lucifers game, am I?

It attacks me in the black abyss
The entity formless yet full of rage
The mark of the beast my body
Scarring me for eternal life

[Chorus]
I brought this all upon myself
Sold my soul to change my life
It's up to me and no one else
The beast in me can't control my life

I brought this all upon myself
Sold my soul to change my life
It's up to me and no one else
The beast in me can't control me

[Bridge]
And so it's begun, this is the end of me
The seed was sewn now it's growing inside
My fate in control, not mine
He lied

[Chorus]
I brought this all upon myself
Sold my soul to change my life
It's up to me and no one else
The beast in me can't control my life

I brought this all upon myself
Sold my soul to change my life
It's up to me and no one else
The beast in me won't control me

2. Slave To The Dark

A twisted state of mind, torn between two worlds
One of which the new me hates and the one that's coming true
The power is unleashed, they perish at my gaze
But am I really in control or am I just a slave

I called upon this god to deliver unto me
To grant what I desire he brought me to my knees
He turned his back on me and filled me with his lies
Ask and I received damnation was the price

I signed my name in blood, didn't read the fine prints
Now I'm just a puppet god for the devils own descent
Bound and shackled here forever damned a slave
Fallen bloody tears can't wash the pain away

[Chorus]
All at once it's clear to me
Damnation and destiny
A slave to darkness shall I be
Damnation and destiny

And so I must repent or will I be destroyed
Will the one that lives in me release me from this lie
And will the wrath of god have mercy on my soul
Or humilate me, desecrate me, like his only son

[Repeat Chorus]

3. A Question Of Heaven

The time is close now, the end is near
My walk through the valley, trails of fear
I feel empty, my penance overdue,
I guess it's too late now to be with you
I'm extremely frightened of what will surely be
I sold myself, the death of me
I know you can't forgive me I know I'm on my own,
I've betrayed you I walk alone

What exactly is the meaning of this
Just pawns in your twisted game
Severe pain for the lie I'm livin'
For a love I never could betray

[Bridge]
Question me not say the lord unto thee
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny
Denied of this life is what you are to be
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny

Lord I pound my fists at you
Won't you just let me die
Would I not suffer enough
No inner peace no after life

[Repeat Bridge]

I did what I thought was right
All for the love of my life
I know it's sad but true
Something is very wrong
Condemned to suffer so long
For a love so true

The question that lies within
Is so hard to understand
It still tears at me
And in my dying breath
My heart holds no regrets
I wouldn't change a thing

My spirit begins to rise to the heavenly skies
Just to be shunned away by you
Now all I want is to die, no streets of gold in the sky
And I wash my hands of you

[Bridge]
Rising to the heaven's light
Just to plead for death
Just to be denied

Rising to the heaven's light
Just to plead for death
Just to be denied

Ooohhh, I know you can't forgive me
I know I'm on my own
I know that I've betrayed you
You know I walk alone
You know I walk alone

I walk, I walk the trail of fear
I pound my fists at you
I'm shunned away by you
I wash my hands of you

Why won't you let me die
Why won't you let me die
Why won't you let me die