Lost

Everyday is the fucking same
I can’t shake the feeling that I’m to blame
You will never forgive me and this I know

I'm tearing apart the seams
I wish this was only a dream
Feeling lost and hopeless
There must be a way through this

I deserve this, my own hatred

Slip away
I think I’m losing you
No I’ll never be okay
Please stay
I need you more than you ever needed me
Why can’t I find the words to say
To make this all go away
I reach for you but find nothing there

I fucked up one too many times
Saying these words of different kinds
Why can’t I change myself?
Why can't I better myself?

Bitter and angry, I can never make you happy

I'm tearing apart the seams
I wish this was only a dream
Feeling lost and hopeless
There must be a way through this

Slip away
I think I’m losing you
No I’ll never be okay
Please stay
I need you more than you ever needed me
Why can’t I find the words to say
To make this all go away
I reach for you but find nothing there

Failing to see what’s in front of me
My regret is crushing what we could be
Turn your back, like you always do
But in my mind the closest thing is you

I will never forget you, I must reap what I sow