The weight of devotion

Dragging me down, there's nothing left of this broken man
Bearing this weight, it weakens me day by day
Try to find change, but I'm looking through jaded eyes
Leave me here, I know no other way to live

Using the fear…to suffer the pain
Driven by rage…in this manic mind
A life of service…a life in ruin
Shattered so slowly…ever so completely

I've given so much…it's stolen my soul
I'm nothing at all…it defines my being
The pleasures of life…elude me still
Cast me out…cast me down

The hate inside me…overcomes the world
It empowers me…It elevates me

My devotion blinds me…the darkness finds me
Heavy on me…weighing down on me

This devotion drives me…my actions haunt me
Crushing me…crushing down on me
Immolation
Breathing The Dark

It lets no light in
It feeds on my pain
I try to feel something
Numbness is all that's left
With every breath
Another piece of me is gone
As if life is leaving me
Leaving nothing behind

Try to hold on
My spirit is gone
Panic runs through me
Fighting the suffering
It spites me
Entices me
It leads me on
Then crushes my dreams
It leaves me hollow
Pulling me deeper
It has no compassion
It wants full control

Try to hold on
My spirit is gone
Fighting to overcome
But every battle is lost

Breathe in the dark
It's all that's here
Breathe in the loss,
Awaken the fear
In this dark place
Tasting my tears
Ripping my mind
Now madness becomes me

Take this sickness away
It drains me, it aches me,
It pulls all hope from me
Like walls it surrounds me
It towers above me
Keeps drawing me in
Showing no love,
but loving my sin

Breathe in the dark
It's all that's here
Breathe in the loss
Awaken the fear
In this dark place
Tasting my tears
What once was is gone
Now misery becomes me