Obsessive compulsive distraction

I can't seem to begin to breathe
I'm always talking but I can't seem articulate a thing
A stack of stories and my pattern's repeating
I mind you for losing I could use a drink
I'm thinking simple but committing all my nights to ink
A whole collection of events have gone missing
I'd digress but I'm barely listening

Falling in focus
Before landing inside a blur
And excusing the surface of what I have returned

I repeat while details leave me
Memory lost in sort of
Rerun the process over

I repeat the details leave me
My memory ain't exactly what it used to be
The short gets shorter while the long term just laughs at me

I can't recall a single thing before I turned 18
A quarter crisis from the back of my destructive brain

Falling in focus
Before landing inside a blur
Are you sure our that attention's in order

Because I'm falling in focus
I'm landing inside a blur
Are you sure that I'll be forgetful forever
Will I be forgetful forever

Memory lost in sort of
Rerun the process over

I never told a single soul before today
You have to face while I walked alone
My day to day in the stroke of the unknown