Sentiments of you

I feel the blood rushing up, the words from you like a blow to the sternum.
I can't hold back now, my mouth is watering two fold.
with the flavor of myself in the meaning.
I lost my head again.
where did we go wrong.
my concern. I lost my head again,
but this time the apology is written across your face with unhealed lacerations.
as I choke on the things I wish I had said blame me
and go ahead with your life as you always did.
and force my stomach to purge the words I might have eaten
in a victorious feat of self indulgence.
I simply lost my head again.
I lost it all when I heard your voice in a tone like the storm that never strays.
from the sepulcher I call my mind.
sentiments of you they will never stray