Break it to my heart

If it's ok,
I leave the bedlight on
And place your water glass where it belongs
And if it's alright
I lie awake at night
Pretending i am curled up at your side
See i'm circling in these patterns
Living out of memories
Im still along way from accepting it
But there's just no you and me

But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if its alright
I still be loving you
Cuz i can't break it to my heart

Is it just me
Did i commit a crime
I wouldn't believe that loving you is just a waste of time
Was it in my head
Reading into things you never said
Cuz i still don't have the answers
To why we couldn't work it out
Want to think it's something that i did
So i can turn it back around

But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if its alright
I still be loving you
Cuz i can't break it to my heart

I wanna convince myself were perfect in every single way
As long as i can keep the truth away from my heart
Cuz i can't break it to my heart
Cuz i still don't have the answers
To why we couldn't work it out
Want to think it's something that i did
So i can turn it back around

But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if its alright
I still be loving you
And if its alright
I still be loving you
Cuz i can't break it to my heart