After dark

Writing a letter to you like you're a foreign pen pal
Talking to you like I've never not known you
Smiling at you with my heart nailed shut
Time-induced-healing has not been enough

I swear you'd always need me
I swear you'd always see me
As the same blood that runs through your veins

Don't come looking for me after dark
I cannot bear to see your footsteps leading nowhere
Roots of the ancient tree have changed
I can't make out your face and what you're saying sounds the same

Hanging photo examples of golden moments
Your memory left in pages I wrote things down
Fizzy telephone calls generous to silence
Empty spaces and forgotten traces of you

I swear you'd always need me
I swear you'd always see me
As the same blood that runs through your veins

Don't come looking for me after dark
I cannot bear to see your footsteps leading nowhere
Roots of the ancient tree have changed
I can't make out your face and what you're saying sounds the same

You're not dead to me because you'll never be
You're as close to gone as distance will allow
Though that might seem fine, you're gone all the time

Don't come looking for me after dark
I cannot bear to see your footsteps leading nowhere
Roots of the family tree are gone
It seems so wrong but I can't force someone to change

Don't come looking for me after dark
Don't come looking for me after dark
Don't come looking for me after dark