Ain't gonna cry

What is my mission?
Why am I swimmin’?
In the dirty water
Of a bad decision
Forty days and nights
I’ve been losing’ my mind
'Cause I don’t know what’s wrong
Or how to make it right

I ain’t gonna cry
I ain’t gonna cry
I don’t know how to pray
I say hallelujah anyway
I ain’t gonna cry

Not a child
But yet I am not free
Stuck in the miles of
Somewhere in between
Coming of age in this day and age
It’s a long hard fight
You gotta sacrifice
You gotta bleed

I ain’t gonna cry
I ain’t gonna cry
When the choir’s gone away
I sing hallelujah anyway
I ain’t gonna cry

All of these feelings
I’ve been suppressing
Gotta get them off my chest
I’m a little unhinged
I guess
Is it factual?
Or is it all in my head?
No? Can’t avoid the void
Feeling paranoid

I ain’t gonna cry
I ain’t gonna cry
When my soul’s gone astray
I say hallelujah anyway

My eyes
Staying dry
My eyes
Staying dry
Gonna find it
See the light
Gonna find it
See the light
Got a chance go with it
To hang onto my pride

I ain’t gonna cry
I ain’t gonna cry
I don’t know how to pray
I say hallelujah anyway
I ain’t gonna cry
I ain’t gonna cry
I don’t know how to pray
I say hallelujah anyway