An evening of extraordinary circumstance

tonight 'll sit around pushing my shit down the drain, using a
plunger and a clothespin while i wrangle wiht the chain. tonight
i'll have potato chips and watch my favorite shows then watch
some infomercials, then watch some tv show. tonight i'll have 9
or 10 beers tonight i'll talk on the telephone mindlessly until
my ear burns from the feeling, from the strain of active
nothing. tonight i'll avoid my hopes and fears. tonight i'll
play shitloads of video games. tonight i'll decide too late to
go get on the train and play out my stupid, misguided version of
fun. tonight i'll get stupid fucking drunk and be an idiot,
ashamed of what i've done. tonight i'll bang out another shitty
song thats unsatisfying. its been so fucking long since i really
felt any other way. tonight i'll crumple up these lyrics and
throw them away. tonight i'll make promises i know i'll never
keep. tonight ill talk on the telephone, wishing i had the
energy to sleep. tonight i'll sit around and bitch. tonight i'll
get hungry staring at the mustard in my empty fridge. maybe
tomorrow i won't smoke no cigarettes. maybe tomorrow i won't
look back on toight with vomit and soaked regrets. maybe
tomorrow i won't drown myself in spite. maybe tomorrow i could
try and tomorrow can be beter than tonight. sleep well and
dream. plastic pillow that give way to someplace green. sleep
well and dream