Saint jude

I called your name on the grayest day
You're the only one who
Ever listened anyway
And it taught me something I guess I already knew
I still want you
Cause we touched like my dream come true
That the tree beside my father's house would bloom
And fill his yard up with its sweet perfume
And hide the scars I carved in its arms for you
I make mistakes, then I'm on my way
Lock him out and the dog will finally stray
Join the vandals
They just want to be listened to
They just want proof
But I have been a liar and a fool
I can forget anything I want to except for the
Image of you in your bedroom where your body
Lies but your eyes can't hide the truth
The night I left, come on, you were
Grateful for the news
You never wept, just undressed and slept til noon
A secret kept it a lover left unmoved, and so I lose
I can't balance my brain
Its like a tightrope come loose
I'm tied to the train tracks like a desperate cartoon
Or I'm bare and I'm blank, if I could pray I would thank saint jude
A lost cause too