You never knew me

I don't want to turn around
And find i'd got it wrong
Or that i should have been laughing all along
You're what keeps me alive
You're what's destroying me
Do you want the truth or do you want your sanity ?
You were hell
And everything else was just a mess
I found i'd stepped into the deepest unhappiness
We get back
I bleed into you
Thank god that i don't love you
All of that's behind me now
Still seems to be above you

I don't know
I don't know whether i ever knew you
But i know you
I know you never knew me
I don't know
I don't know whether i ever knew you
But i know you
I know you never knew me
Do you want to!

Hope doesn't serve me now
I don't move fast at all these days
You think you've understood
You're ignorant that way
I'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
I'm sorry i can't be cancelled out like this
We had to kill too much
Before we could even kiss

I don't know ...