Never sure

To be alone together just once again
Is something that is sure to happen sometime
And if my hands can't stay on the table
If I find myself unable
To look away from staring in your eyes
And the color of the sunrise inside
I promise that I'll hold myself together
And act like this isn't killing me
I saw you once today
I painfully watched as you looked the other way
Afraid just to notice me standing there
You would make it obvious you don't care

I won't lie
I only love you for the heartbreak
I only love you for the give and the take
No, you know I want it

I'm in love with the thought of everything
I am lifted to a holy ground
And from up here can see a little of everything
And I can see you don't want me around
I know how much that it makes you cringe
To think about you and I as friends
Together forever until the end
After that
You won't have to see me again

I won't lie
I only love you for the heartbreak
I only love you for the give and the take
No, you know I want it

And when I die
Just rip my heart out from my chest
And put it in a mason jar left to rest
On your bedside table

If there's any hope alive after that all
I would hold it like a newborn baby
And care for it like it was my own
Hey, you know, it looks kinda like me
And we'd still get chills every time we kiss
I will always promise this
That to you I will never tell a lie

I won't lie
I only love you for the heartbreak
I only love you for the give and the take
No, you know I want it

And when I die
Just rip my heart out from my chest
And put it in a mason jar left to rest
On your bedside table

And put it in a mason jar left to rest
On your bedside table