A fautly foundation

This plan is only surface
And I do not deserve this
I'm wondering if I'll withstand
To stand alone and stand to scream
To the world "I'm through
And now I've come to mend
These wounds were gored by you
Through all of them"

it's too sad that I've got to mediate
these faulty sides of you
and I'm wondering whatever did I do
the only reason that I still remain to you
is that I go on repeating the excuse

What if this had not happened
What if she hadn't gone
What if this had not happened
She never would have gone

Never want you to say
I exploit this in any way
Still I don't deserve this
I stood alone too long to say