If you only knew

I tell myself i am seeing ghosts
They're just projections of the things i need the most
'cause when you say hello or smile at me
That's not a secret code
You're tryin to signal me

It's just a trick of my mind
What am i hoping to find
I need to stop this before one of us gets hurt
But when i'm lying awake
It feels like such mistake
A wasted day 'cause i didn't say a word
Oh no…

Though i know that this isn't real
I cannot help but wonder what you'd feel
And though i know that it isn't true
I cannot help but wonder what you'd do

I tell myself i should wake and see
There's not the slightest chance you'd ever fall for me
I'm holding on to this fantasy
A play that's staged within
My dreams and reveries.

It's just a trick of my mind
Desire's turning me blind
Shows me a side of you that simply isn't there
And when i'm lying in bed,
My head, filled with regrets
A train of thoughts on a track that leads nowhere.
Nowhere…

Though i know that this isn't real
I cannot help but wonder what you'd feel
And though i know that it isn't true
I cannot help but wonder what you'd do

If you only knew…
If you only knew…
If you only knew…

If you only knew the way your laugh
Shines like a blade
But cuts me in half
If you only knew the way your smile…
Haunts me.