A realization of how it's always been

Please drag me away from this, I just want to go
And I'm taking in everything and just want to know
I've lost all direction and reason and seem so low
To everyone, every time, only if they'd know

No, I will lay down dead here
This feeling takes over again and it's over soon
I'm driving away from this and still it looms
It seeps into everything and can empty you
No, I will lay down dead here

Sincerity empties me
And all I see is a realization of how it's always been
Just take me away because it seems so bad
Please end on this day, so I won't feel bad again
You said that I'd never really forget this time
And I've known this before