I confess

I confess I'm nothing you thought I'd be
but you already knew
It's only some days that I forget myself
and but fewer that I care

I'm nothing that I wanted to be
I've said nothing that I wanted to say
And it's only now that I confess
I'll never find my own way

You looked so solemn as I laughed at
everything you said
You thought that I actually cared
when I really wanted you dead

I'm nothing that I wanted to be
I've said nothing that I wanted to say
And it's only now that I resent myself
cause I'll never find my own way

And it's the way I'm always going to be
because I've lost concern for myself
And it's the way I'm always going to be
because I've lost control of myself