Willingly unknowing

Sitting here and shaking at the top of the world
Celebrating times that were really absurd
All I have to do is to say those words
And then my mind is overflowing

Someone is trying hard for the very first time
But, someone is laying there saying...

I never had the chance to be the one

Starring at the ceiling at the end of the day
Stimulating life well that's all I can say
I don't have to think it's a great relief
And I am willingly unknowing

A mess, a mess I can't repair the damage
I can't believe how difficult it is
A mess, a mess I can't repair the damage
But I'm never giving in
No I'm never giving in