Victim heavy version

Thinking suicide
Thinking suicide
Thinking suicide
Thinking suicide
Thinking suicide

Look at my eyes (suicide)
I need a disguise
To hide my lies

Oh god
What have I done
To myself
To her
Before your eyes
What could drive me so mad
To lose what we had
The mystery remains inside

Want to make it real
Like it was before
And I lost the bond
Cause I shut the door
In search of ways to be myself
But ended up like somebody else

Trusted me
Honored me
Fought for me
Cried for me
Lived for me
Died for me

Open my eyes I see the walls
White as snow
They don't seem strong
Betrayed myself
Opened my eyes
Can't see those walls I feel so dumb
Like a fuckin' bum
Preferred to run
Then face the fact I stabbed your back
I understand that
Did not deserve that
You can't go back
Do you see it?
Oh my god what have I done?
Please forgive me fuck that! I feel
So hated
So aggravated
So frustrated I can't explain it
The way that I feel I feel so dumb
Like a fuckin' bum
Preferred to run
Then face the fact I stabbed your back I'm a victim

Slippin through the system
Victim
Slippin through the system

Open my eyes
Can't see those walls I feel so dumb
Like a fuckin' bum
Preferred to run
Then face the fact I stabbed your back
I understand that
Did not deserve that you can't go back
Do you see it?
Oh my god what have I done
Please forgive me fuck that I feel
So hated
So aggravated
So frustrated I can't explain it
The way that I feel I feel so dumb
Like a fuckin' bum
Preferred to run
Then face the fact I stabbed your back I'm a victim
Slippin through the system

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Victim slippin through the system
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