Sphere of unhappiness - i. withdrawing from the world

Reality sets the ride
I took a peek outside
Quickly I turn away

Sometimes I shake
My feelings make my heart brake
Sealed myself

The doors are locked
The curtains closed
I turn my back
The truth erodes

I sit quetly
With my face in my hands
Patiently waiting
Draining out like hourglass sands

Memories forgotten
Forfeit my soul
Can't seem to break this
I refuse to let it go

I wasn't prepared
In truth i was scared
My life was given
I cried but you didn't listen