Suicide note, pt. i

Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take
the pain away
Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot
see inside yours and mine

When I'm hiding, when I need it
It lets me
breathe, for our handle on this life
I don't believe this time

Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again

Forever fooling, free and using
Sliding down the slide that breaks a will
Mothers angel, getting smarter
How smart are you to regress unfulfilled?
It's a damn shame
But who's to blame?

When I'm hiding, when I need it
It lets me
breathe, for our handle on this life
I don't believe this time

Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove, I'll try again
Try to die again
Try to live through this night
Try to die again