The path of reclusion

Aloneness time stands still
Ever lasting true, consuming
You embrace the solitude
Walk the marvelous path of reclusion

Mystic, consume, gentle, safe
An insect, a guest at an event
A small dark room, a peaceful tranquil planet

Preparing for eternity, jumped off the carousel
Outside, pretending civilized
Sad circus

Aloneness is deep you're still
You surrender your suol to a ghost
And when the shadows come to call
Secret thoughts become conversation

From in the corners of the box
I chose to think outside of
I forged four fragile bows to make a circle
Lays of dust fall to warm my weary heart
In the marvelous method of reclusion

I'm preparing for eternity
Jumped off the carousel
Outside pretend civilized
Sad circus

I've found myself but I don't know what to make out of this situation?
Am I really awake?
I wonder if time goes by too fast for those who've loved me in the past?
Hurting are my hands and hurtful are the words that I am writing

Layers and layers of dust coat my heart!
Broken is the door and broken is the man who screamed and tore it down
Futile are the attempts to change me
And futile are my whispers in the dark

Quiet is the man behind the window
Quieter still the man behind the mask

Black are these old brick walls I have laid
Black are these cold brick walls I have painted
Black is, my ambitious, tainted art
Black is my bleeding
Misplaced heart

Aloneness, takes hold
While you sleep, forever lasting grave, stealing
Succumbing to the solitude
You believe the marvelous dreams of reclusion

Peaceful, mystical
Serene downstream time suspends
As ll drift
Paralysis sneaks up
And sedates me
Upstream time flows
Without me, goes unimissed

I'm heading for eternity
Jumped from the carousel
Outside, pretending civilized
Sad
Civilized sad circus!