Pain becomes me

All this time I've been dreaming of it
All this time it's been haunting in my head
Tempting me, inviting me, to fall asleep in it's arms
To fall from grace, to breathe this ever-deeming dusk

Through my eyes you could see the Hurt I craved
Through my eyes you'd see there's nothing left to save
I heard you said there's a light up ahead
But I am heading towards the dead end
I just can't say no, I just can't let go
For it's got me banned

I crave therefore I am and that is all I ever feel
I hoped you'd understand, One love, One pain, One enemy
I toast to misery, as I dig into the devil's bone
And for eternity the pain became me
Unholy me alone

Leave me alone...